Day 643: Extra Arm

This is by Marc Johns

That balance... motivation, drive, freedom, and bald-faced laziness. I'm looking for balance, within myself, outside myself and somewhere in between. I'm looking for direction in all those places too. I feel like I could do anything, and while I dither and decide, the world gets bigger around me and I stay small. 

I am blessed with wonderful people in my life who seem to accept me whether or not I 'achieve', whether or not I shine. And what I notice consistently: they seem to see me in a lighter light than I do. They see the sparkles and the successes when I seem to strive to miss them. 

I realise how lucky I am to be in the situation I am in, and what a luxury it is. I can survive easily. I have huge amounts of choice about what I do. I can come and go in the whole world, mostly as I please. Perhaps I'm having a moment of lacking purpose. Not perhaps. I am. And in this state of dissatisfaction, I am still grateful, and vividly aware of what a privileged position I stand in.