Day 144 - Link

Thanks to an agreement with Sarah Lonton and a meeting with Laura, I got up this morning. It was still a massive struggle. The person I have to have a conversation with to persuade myself to get out of bed in the morning is a stubborn, insisty bastard. You know when people are being moved on by the Police and they make their bodies go all heavy and difficult so they're harder to move? Well she's like that, physically and mentally. And she's a master of manipulative drivel as well. She keeps me talking for ages until I realise that she's had me in bed for a whole hour just thinking about the best order for things or the pros of what she's decided we'll do. But it happened, and I managed a blessed swim beforehand too. I had a quick, unexpected dog fix, still on my bike. Just a quick go on a patient mongrel. 


Thanks for a rainy, productive walk with Laura and her baby, Marco, all smiley when I came in, which is always gratifying. Thank you for cafe treats and more chat, for gifts all wrapped and gifts like lots of Laura and Marco fix time. Grateful to my "waterproof" jacket on the way to The Hub. Didn't keep me dry at all, but did make me visible. Which is good, really, because I couldn't see shit.


My eyes are going. I need to sleep. Thank you, quickly, for my audition. It's tomorrow. It's the tea and cake people, with their exciting role and their big ideas. I know not to take it for granted - it's just an audition - but it's one I'll enjoy doing. Tomorrow, perhaps an exploration of gratitude and joy. Perhaps not.