Day 567: It's All About the Love

So long, no practice. I'm feeling the pinch of drinking life in bitter little sips, ignoring the oceans of goodness that are always, always there. 

Beautiful people fed me beautiful food and spread their warm and lovely energies all around last night. I'm grateful for that. 

I'm experiencing a whole load of emotion at the moment. This groundlessness and lovelessness. It's all about the love and here's this fear of risking it and this carefulness and holding. Nobody will let go of that for me. Nobody will come and strip it away (will they?). And nobody will rip off the blinkers to all the love available in the world, all these fine friends and potential communities. It's up to me. Nobody said it was easy. Nobody said it wasn't. It just is

I know this will pass. I know I can't afford to just wait it out and I know that on some of its levels, it's all I can do. And I know that other things go on all around, and there are such good times in every day. For this, and for all of it, of course, I am grateful.