Day 525: In These Arms/Yesterday's Owl

Thanks, Christian de Sousa

I went all the way up to London just for another Sweaty Thursday. It was epic and fabulous and I'm deeply glad I went. I went to move something through my body. I went because I needed to dance. I went because I knew I could turn up there any way at all - in any mood, with anything on my mind, in joy or in something else - and it would be totally fine. 

Yesterday's owl. Has my ears.
Thanks, Daniel

I was all contradictions. I was full of emotions and quite separate. I needed some space. I danced much less with partners than usual and I felt a force field around me for some of it, like a wall. The partner shout would go out and I'd look up and people would be there, but making no connection with me. Like being on Misfits and getting that invisibility vibe going on. 

At the same time, before I even arrived, I was yearning to be held in the arms of someone strong, just so. No demands, no flirtation, no expectations of anything - just held with tenderness, connection and groundedness. That's what I needed. That's what I wanted. It's never happened before and I didn't actively initiate it, but it happened, just so. Just perfect. I am grateful, grounded and held.