Day 136 - Dead Animal Weirdness

Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

 Still grateful for my computer. Today could have been so different, eh? And it's by the by, I suppose, but that backpack is one of the best I've ever owned (and I've had hundreds of them). Glad that's still there.


I forgot some things from yesterday. I got changed outside instead of inside, which meant i got to watch  the birds flitting about. I also saw a magpie pecking at the head (possibly eyes) of a dead rat. Nice.
And male ducks trying to drown each other by holding each other's head under the water. That's what it looked like, anyway, but they seemed friendly enough afterwards as the bundled off into the the undergrowth near the bank. 

In response to 'magpie dead rat'

Looking for a picture to show the magpie/rat action coughed up this random offering. Just google Dead Animal Art. This man takes roadkill and makes it into new creatures. Like Medieval people did with food (putting pigs' heads on stuff etc.). Once again, things like this are information for me that there are men in the world who might suit me. Just maybe. Or maybe not.


Lovely water today. I could have stayed in longer. I went so very late. Not so late that it was shut, like it was the other day, but very late. Tomorrow earlier. I got a lovely email from Corinna, who's going quite early. It would be nice to go and see some familiar faces, much as I'm enjoying meeting new people all the time there. You can see how it comes about that I don't meet a lot of new men, though, isn't it. Well, I do, in fact, but either I'm not meeting many men who I see in that way or (probably and) I'm very closed to it. But I meet a lot of lovely women (not in that way either, mostly). Mostly, it's inspiring, intelligent, half-dressed women with massive life stories. They're good to talk to. 


I'm grateful for a very thoughtful email from Kate, full of things to do. I am blessed to count so many intelligent, inspiring (mostly fully-dressed) women as my good friends. Thanks too to Duncan, who sent fabulous music, and to whom I have not yet replied. Jules for his positive response to my enquiry, and to Rob for always being on it, Luke, Clive and Andy for dropping in. Lovely playing going on. Really was. I learn so much at every session. One of the things I have learnt is that I need to be a participant a lot more, and just get the playing time down. It can only be a good thing. And a performer. I need to get back into that too. 

Alien Baby/Pastry. Either way, not free.

Thank you for the grumpy-faced man at the counter in M&S, where I went to get some change by buying a decaf coffee. He was so non-plussed all the way through the exchange. I put into practice a task sent to me by Rob - the Daily Rejection task (http://preview.tinyurl.com/78aendn).  I asked the gentleman if I could have a free pastry with my coffee. Once he'd asked me to repeat it, he said 'No, we haven't got any', kind of gesturing towards the wall of pastries they did, in fact, have. And then he smiled. That was the reward (as well as the fact that the rejection, which I have become terribly afraid of recently, was offered up without too much resistance). Him finally smiling and being a person to me rather than a role. That was nice.

Sandison in my cupboard

I do appreciate my computer more today, it's true. Perhaps I'll sleep on the floor so as to better appreciate my bed. No, I love my bed. A lot. Maybe I will, though. Not tonight. 

Sandison in the GO Cafe

Ooh, and on the wall of the toilet, in answer to the question 'what new thing will you do on 29th?', I said 'get some exciting new work'. When I switched on my phone after the drop-in, there was an email from a new agency offering me some German work. Fuck, yeah. Thanks, Justin McCarron. I must find you and finally give you the small thank you gift I have for you for the last (two or three) times you've passed my name on to people. I'm so grateful.  I also said I'd flirt. Tomorrow. I don't do that very often. Oh dear. Why did I say that?


I get to see Sandison tomorrow. Everything's going to be alright. Not in that way.